The thing about migraines is that there is no cure and there is no medicine that works for everyone. The even crazier thing is, there is not a medicine that works every time even if you are lucky enough to find something that works for you. It’s constantly a guess and check and experiment game.
When it comes to matters of the brain, it’s hard to keep on top of it. My entire life I have been on dozens of medicines and sometimes they work, sometimes they don’t. Or they work then all of a sudden my body changes and it doesn’t. The game is never ending and I’ve been on the losing end most of the time.
Here’s the most frustrating part…..sometimes everything stops working. I got home from vacation expecting a migraine from coming from the Caribbean to settle back into a polar vortex. So I tried to be prepared. I saw my neurologist the day before we left and got refills on my prescriptions so I could battle when I got home.
The day I got home I filled them and spent $670 dollars. I almost fainted on the spot! So I now have had a migraine for 8 days ranging from a 5-9 pain scale at all moments and everything has stopped working!!!!
I have taken everything I can without causing rebound headaches or overdosing and nothing has given me a second of relief. 670 dollars and nothing works! I’m doing everything naturally that I know of also and everything has stopped working. I threw my son’s birthday party by staggering around with my Headache Hat and sunglasses on while we set up. The party was amazing and my son will never have any idea that his mom woke up with her right eye swollen shut from the pressure and pain. I hope one day my kids will look back and not see me as weak but see how strong I am to fight. By about day 4 or 5 the mental fight with my migraine began.
The sadness of missing out on life, the loneliness of laying in bed, the anxiousness of not knowing when it will increase or if it will ever decrease, the longing to do simple painless things, the nonstop pain of doing pretty much everything, and mostly the exhaustion. I’m really good at faking it in front of other people, but the second I’m alone all I can do is collapse. What do I do with my free time? I curl up in a cold dark room. So what do I do? What do you do when everything stops working?