The motherless mothers, mothered mothers and Mother’s Day

Last year I wrote about motherless mothers, mothered mothers and being a mother. This year I’d like to remember all the mothers who lost a child too. I hate that mothers suffer and mourn on a day to celebrate all the wonderful things about being a mom. Being a mom comes ultimate love therefore ultimate loss when taken away. I’m sorry for your loss and no words can accurately express the depths of your grief. I know your angel is surrounding you today telling you s/he feels your love still!
Happy Mother’s Day to all the different types of moms out there, your definition and labels are endless. May your heart, life and day be filled with love and purpose! ❤️💙💜💚

My Migraine Life

FullSizeRenderAs I prepared to write a Mother’s Day post about how much I love my mom and how much I love to be a mom, I read a very interesting article.  The article was about being a “motherless mother.”  I have never heard that phrase and it really got me thinking.  The phrase “motherless mother” can be a variety of moms.  It can be mothers who lost a mother, had an absent mother, a mentally ill mother, a narcissistic mother and more.  The baggage that a daughter has from being a motherless mother and becoming a mother must be huge.  How do you be the best you can be when you’ve had a bad example or not one at all?  The fears, the doubts and the lack of support must mold a mother into something new.

Although I know many motherless mothers, I can say that all of them have…

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EnviroKlenz review, products for chemical sensitivity and allergies

As a follow-up to Migraine and Allergies I have changed a few things in my house to lessen our allergens.

·         For the summer, we will keep the windows closed and use the air conditioning

·         We take our shoes off when entering the house and wash hands immediately

·         When coming in from playing outside, my son showers and changes his clothes before bed and nap

·         All beds are covered with allergen pillow cases and bed sheets

·         We installed a new HVAC air cartridge

I was given the HVAC air cartridge as part of a product review through the Chronic Illness Bloggers network. Although the product was a gift, all opinions in this review remain my own and I was in no way influenced by the company.

 

EnviroKlenz Natural Cleaning Products

The first thing that struck me about EnviroKlenz, was the variety of products I can use in my home.  They are geared for chemically sensitive like myself, along with those with allergies and suffer from respiratory problems like my son.  I have a lot of problems with many cleaning agents that trigger my migraines through smell and harsh chemicals and generally look for natural cleaners and eco-friendly cleaning products. I don’t like my children and dog smelling fumes so EnviroKlenz sounded like what I need for my house.

Being very sensitive to odor, a mom and pet owner I was interested in their odor neutralizer and eliminator.  The neutralizer is a green cleaning product that can be used for cleaning and removing vomit odor, spills and odors from carpets and solid surfaces, liquid spills in cars, pet mess, pet urine and more. 

I was also drawn in by the laundry enhancers. EnviroKlenz works along with normal detergent to enhance its ability to remove tough odors but contains no masking agents or fragrances.

The product I chose to review was the HVAC air cartridge. I was most excited about how the air cartridge removes VOCs and odors from my home. 

What are VOCs?

“Volatile organic chemicals (VOC) encompass a wide range of compounds. These chemicals range from slightly hazardous organic solvents up to highly toxic and corrosive acids. They can be found in most industrial and household settings, and can pose a serious hazard for a prolonged period of time in an indoor environment. In addition to organic compounds, there are also a wide range of additional toxic volatile compounds which are commonly found in the home.”

EnviroKlenz HVAC filter destroys noxious chemicals and odors.  It is a non toxic air cleaning product.  Their HVAC filter neutralizes odors and VOCs preventing them from returning into indoor air space.  Their products are made from metal oxides which are considered safe compounds found in safe consumer and food products.

I feel at ease knowing my HVAC air cartridge is providing me with clean air.  At home, I want my children to be their safest and healthiest being I control their environment and what’s in it.  With EnviroKlenz I have taken one step closer to doing so.

I recommend EnviroKlenz for anyone looking for odor elimination products, air purifier for allergies and eco-friendly home products. 

 What do you do to lessen the allergens in you home?

Check out their products here:  EnviroKlenz

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Migraine and Allergies


Several years ago, I had sinus surgery.  I have suffered from sinus issues and infections my whole life (just like Migraines).  After many sinus infections, this year I decided to look for more answers on why I’m still suffering so much from allergies.

The first doctor I went to I had seen as a child with the same issues.  He dismissed me after speaking at length because I was “too knowledgeable” about my migraines and triggers stating that allergy testing wouldn’t teach me anything.

I wasn’t surprised, so I moved on to an immunologist that a friend and fellow migraine sufferer had suggested. He stated that allergy sufferers are 33% more likely to suffer from frequent migraines and he was incredibly interested in helping.  I was pricked with lots of allergens and waited in his office wanting to scratch my arm off.

Once the results came in I received a lot of feedback that I found helpful.

1.       Food allergy- I found out that I was allergic to corn.  For those of you that don’t know, corn is in EVERYTHING processed.  I asked “how allergic” I was and how careful I needed to be.  As always, it depends and he suggested to experiment with foods and how I felt.   This was an “ah ha moment” for me being I feel sick 95% of the time I eat.  I have never known why but corn is a good clue.

2.       Indoor allergies- I found out I’m allergic to dust and mold.  I like to think I keep a clean house but with a Golden Retriever, 2 small children and a busy life, a dust free home is not possible (is it for anyone?). 

3.       Nasal allergies- This year I have suffered from endless sinus infections.  My doctor told me that I had not been receiving the correct treatment.  I had been going to a “Minute Clinic” when I had a sinus infection and couldn’t stand it anymore.  The medication that was given was, according to my doctor, was not strong enough or for a long enough time to rid the sinusitis.  Therefore, my sinus infections just kept cycling because they were never really gone.

Going forward the things I am implementing are:

1.       Reading food labels more carefully.  Looking at them, it seems corn is in everything so I’m trying to eliminate foods that have it as the first 5 ingredients listed.

2.       I got allergy pillow cases, mattress cover and installed a new air filter in my house.

3.       I took the medication to rid me of my sinusitis and now have preventative medication to take at night to hopefully help with the migraines I am waking with each morning.

4.       I now have an appointment for my son to be allergy tested for his chronic breathing and upper respiratory issues.  He is currently on preventative medication and breathing treatments.

5.       After playing outside, we are showering my son and changing his clothes before nap and playing in the house.  We were told that the allergens stick to his hair therefore leaving the allergens around the house.  We have always washed hands upon entering, don’t wear shoes in the house, vacuum a lot and dust.

Follow up:

1.       I will now be going to my immunologist for my sinus infections.

2.       I will be learning more from my son’s allergy testing and be able to accommodate both better once the results are back.

3.       I will be posting a review of my new air filter

Do you suffer from allergies and migraines?  What are you allergic to and how do you treat them?  The more ideas to live preventatively the better!

Disney World. My migraine

 

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This picture is intentionally blurry.  I may have been smiling but this is a small sample of the blur I was looking through that day.

 

There is no way I expected to make it three days without getting a migraine.  My day at Magic Kingdom had been perfect and low pain which meant for sure I was getting one the next day.  Sure enough, I woke up sick.  I immediately took my rescue meds, drank water and rolled around my bed in pain and anger.  I was really angry and not willing to miss the day that I had planned for my family. 

So when it was time to go, I loaded myself out of bed and got on the boat to Disney Springs.  With the experience I have, I had prepared our bag and stroller the night before and all my husband needed to do was get them dressed and lead us all to the dock.  At Disney Springs we got breakfast.  I sat outside of the busy crowded, loud, disorienting restaurant to save a table and hang my head in pain.  Everything around me was in slow motion and my body clenched.  I was barely able to stomach a sandwich and caffeine to hopefully speed up my meds. 

We next proceeded to the boutique in which my beautiful daughter would be turned into Cinderella.  As I approached, I  instantly felt fear of this magical place.  Picture a room filled with lights from every direction with air packed with hairspray, sounds of women talking in pitches I can only imagine a dog could hear and parent’s pushing you to get out of the way of their photo op.  Basically a Migraine’s hell.   I can still smell it just writing about it. 

As my son and husband were leaving to go to the Lego store,  my husband asked me if I was going to make it.  Let me tell you about the motivation of a stay at home mom watching her daughter turn into a princess.  My daughter had told me the day before that she wished on her “wishing star” that she could turn  into a princess.  I may not get money for what I do but watching my sweet girl’s wish come true is my salary. 

As I was very aware of the seats around me and garbage cans (I tend to throw up with my migraines) I decided to stay and immerse myself in the experience.  Let me tell you, if I had been one bit of a higher pain level I would have had to tap out.  Don’t think I’m telling you I can do anything if I’m motivated enough, but this was an exceptional occasion.  I should have been in bed and am not sure how I did it, to tell you the truth. 

Anyways, I decided to ask our “fairy Godmother” about some special occasions she has seen there.  She began to tell a story about an engagement but the story that moved me was this…...

A little girl Skyped with her father while he was deployed in Afghanistan so he could see her transformation.  I listened with tears in my eyes.  Tears of pain, tears of heartache for so many and tears of gratitude. 

I stood there with a smile on my face yet close to passing out and I thought of how thankful I was.  Yes, I was pained in every inch of my body yet I was thankful.  I was thankful to that dad, his daughter, her mother, and to everyone who sacrifices for our country.  I was thankful that I knew my husband and baby boy were safe next door.  I was so thankful to all of the men and women who put their lives on the line so I could stand there and watch my child’s wish come true.  It was a very profound moment to remind myself that my pain may have been all consuming but I’m not the only one suffering.  I think it’s a moment I will never forget!!!

So with this all said, let me say THANK YOU to all of the men and women in our armed forces.  Not only thank you to you, but thank you to your family and friends who also sacrifice while you protect us.  Thank you to generations past, present and future.  The job you do is something that is not acknowledged enough.  You allow the American dream and little girl’s wishes to come true.  Thank You!

Disney World. The bad

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Every good side has a bad side. I was happily surprised that I saw little bad while I visited Disney World.  The bad thing that I did see was ungrateful people.

My experience with meditation didn’t go well but something I find easy and beneficial to do every day is to show gratitude.  It comes easily being I have a disease that keeps me in a cold dark room and even the littlest bit of relief allows me to be grateful.

I also was a special education teacher for children with severe needs.   I can tell you that when you’ve worked with a child that is severely Autistic or is multiply handicapped you see the world in a different way.

So here’s the bad about Disney World….ungrateful adults.  I have always been able to work with difficult children because of the reminder that they don’t know any better.  I don’t give adults that benefit of the doubt.

As I was standing waiting for my family after a bathroom break (I told you we were hydrating!) I saw a most ungrateful man. He literally stopped in front of me and screamed at his daughter (or could have been his granddaughter, I couldn’t tell) about her band aid falling off her hand.

First of all, band aids fall off a moving hand.  Secondly, shame on him for yelling and embarrassing his daughter about such an insignificant thing.  As she hung her head I could feel the anger rise in me.

I texted my best friend and told her I considered tripping the man (hopefully scrapping his hand) and handing his daughter an extra band aid to put in her pocket.  I don’t go anywhere without band aids.  Kids fall and when they fall they need a band aid.  Even when there isn’t blood, sometimes a band aid just makes them feel better.

You know what doesn’t make them feel better, getting yelled at in a group of people.  How ungrateful!  He was worried about this tiny detail of his day and I am sitting there thinking of the Make a Wish family that had just walked by me.  I bet that family wasn’t worried about a band aid.  I bet their worries were real and powerful and that they would give anything to have their biggest problem be a band aid.  That family was smiling and laughing and  not worrying about such a small thing because they know BIG problems.  I wish that family could talk to that man and tell him about real anger.  Not anger at their child but anger at what they were suffering from.

Another time I saw the bad side of Disney was when we were on a ride. At one point the ride stopped and they made a statement about the ride stopping and that it would start again in a moment.  I heard a woman behind me groan and start loudly complaining about how she couldn’t believe it was ruining her ride.

It’s a funny thing about perspective.  My first thought wasn’t to complain it was to hope.  I sat there hoping that the boy I saw in a wheel chair with a feeding tube was being carefully wheeled onto the ride.  While this woman was complaining I was hoping that this sweet child would be able to experience the beauty and wonder of the ride that I was getting to enjoy.   While this woman was complaining with her working legs and loud mouth I would be interested to hear what that dad I saw pushing him would think.  I’m glad he couldn’t hear her and hope they got to enjoy!

Are these people bad people, of course not. I only heard and saw a small moment of their day.  No one is perfect and I ‘m sure they were dealing with their own issues.  Everyone has problems and everyone expresses them differently.  But from my perspective the bad thing about Disney is the ungrateful people.

I can’t go anywhere without negative people surrounding me and some days it bothers me more than others.  On a day that I felt OK and was literally looking to the sky being grateful for everything this world had provided me.  Then, I heard such nonsense of “band aid gate” and “let’s pause for a moment and complain.”

Let’s all show gratitude!

Part 3 of Disney World is coming.  You know it had to come…..the MIGRAINE!  This one has a great lesson.

Disney World. The Good, the Bad, and the Migraine

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Disney World!!!!!!

 

I went to Disney World for 3 days and I could probably write a book on it.  Instead I’m going to focus on three things. The good, the bad, and my migraine.  So let’s begin with the good……

Where to begin. Disney World is called the happiest place on earth for a reason.  If you’ve been following me from the beginning, you know this is not the first time I have written about a Disney princess (A Whole New World?) I have loved all things Disney since I was a child and have been so happy to see my children fall in love all the same.  We spent an entire day at Magic Kingdom.  I had planned and saved like most families do and was eager to see how my dreams would come true for my family.

My personal favorite thing was to ride the rides.  I used to love rides but now enter them with a bit more trepidation.  I fear flashing lights, jerking motions and all those other triggers that come along with my migraines.  I also feared the weather, my diet, the stress, dehydration, and exhaustion.

But Tinker Bell sprinkled her fairy dust on me that day and I lived in a fairytale land.  I did however, prepare.  I had water bottles for all of us that I filled at every water fountain I saw.  I didn’t care about how many bathroom breaks we were going to stop at, we all were staying hydrated.  I also brought portable fans for my family that tends to sweat and me who tends to overhead.  I had snacks galore that were healthy and filling enough to stop us from stopping at every food stand we saw.  I had hats and sunglasses for everyone while we waited in the sun.

I didn’t stress at all because we were on vacation, we were together, and somehow I was feeling OK.  OK for me means super duper terrific on a day like our day at Magic Kingdom.  One of my highlights was watching my children meet the characters and waving to them at the parades. IMG_4327IMG_4332

Is there anything sweeter than a tiny hand waving at floats singing to music?  I found myself waving at everyone also, it was contagious. IMG_2246IMG_2186

I actually got to feel like a normal person that day.  I spun around in tea cups laughing and only feeling dizzy.  Feeling dizzy from your kids joyfully spinning you verses feeling dizzy from standing up on an average day is very different.

I felt shaky from my daughter “steering” a car on a track slamming from side to side and laughing from the depths of my gut.  This shaky is wonderful compared to shaking from pain masked by medication yet not masking muscle contractions.

At the end of the day I felt truly tired.  Not exhausted from fighting a migraine, tired from a long glorious day.  I was able to sing with Ariel in her grotto, the way I love to sing (Feeling better makes me sing)IMG_4360

I flew like I could fly

I flew like I had wings.  I took selfies without thinking how my smile was a mask for how I really felt.

The laughs, the joy, the magic was all from a low pain day.  From the opening song that made me feel butterflies in my stomach to the last firework that gleamed in my eye, I was feeling low pain.  Whatever it was; the adrenaline, the preventatives drugs, the preventative living, or  the intoxicating bubble of love and joy, I call it magic!

I could go on and on and on about how our day at Magic Kingdom was one of the happiest I can remember in a very long time (and I consider myself to live a happy life) but I will stop at saying it was perfect. For those of you who can’t relate to a perfect day, I thought it was impossible for myself.  But just like every perfect day comes reality.  Stay tuned for the bad and migraine party of my trip.

Lessons and life with Migraine and Disney

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With seeing the new Beauty and the Beast and planning a trip to Disney World this year, I have been reminded of a lot of lessons learned through Disney.

Today I reminisced to the very beginning of my blogging adventures.  I wrote a post about Aladdin that was short and sweet but meaningful to many Disney movies and life lessons.

This week I will repost my Disney World, the good, the bad and the migraine series.  Please follow me on:

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For today, a flashback to my thoughts on Aladdin and a Whole New World

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