Today’s #MondayMotivation is a reminder to drop the “to do list” and focus on “being.” I find this really, REALLY hard to do!!!! I’m a mom, wife, teacher and migraine sufferer. Where do I have time to just be? With my migraines, I find I always have a list in my head to get done ahead of time preparing for a migraine. I also have a list of things that accumulate while I have a migraine and am unable to do it. The list goes on…..
This week is the week before school. My children are growing up so fast and my migraines make me miss so much! This week I’m going to focus on extending good night kisses, cuddling my babies longer, dancing more, being kinder to myself, letting go, being proud and getting lost in the moment. I’m going to let go of the to do list while I have a migraine and not feel pressured to check off that list while I’m playing legos on the floor.
This seems nearly impossible, but I’m going to try! MUCH easier said than done……..
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As always, I’m on the hunt for something to make me feel better. So I joined a 21 day meditation challenge. I have a friend who decided to try it too. So with power in numbers, I thought we’d be Zen by the end of the week. Well……not so easy, as I suspected. Each day there is an explanation for the day. A centering thought and mantra is provided that is to be chanted while music is played until the end of the meditation. To begin with, we started a day late. Slackers! Day 2-5 were difficult to get into. Here’s why.
- I have been in a cycle for about 3 weeks now ranging from 5-10 pain levels. I’ve been living my good days mostly at about a 6. This doesn’t always bode well for concentrated thinking.
- I had trouble chanting the phrases they provided when I didn’t fully buy into them. It’s all about gratitude. One day the mantra was something like, “if you show gratitude, good things will come to you.” Well, I found that very difficult to chant to myself. I am a person that finds gratitude in my life and as I’m radiating pain and doing everything I can to feel better, showing gratitude at that moment was not a priority. Feeling better was. It was almost insulting to me that I was being told that if I only showed gratitude things would be better.
- Confusion. Migraine brain was fully set in and I heard the voice tell me to chant that I was “less.” I thought to myself, there is no way I’m chanting “I’m less” in a language I don’t speak. I’m less than what? Less than who? Less how? Well I opened my eyes to read the screen and it said “bliss.” That made more sense! But the meditation was blown at that point.
- The messages didn’t make me feel powerful or motivated to do again the next day. I deep breath and chant to myself a lot when I’m alone and in pain. I have done this for years and feel that it made my labors somewhat easier to handle. No one knows my body and mind more than myself and I try to control it the best I can. It’s not someone telling me what to think and chant, it’s myself telling me what I specifically need to survive. Survival vs tranquility, I guess. I chant things like, “You can do this.” “You are strong, you can beat this.” “Calm down body, calm down brain, relax, and breathe.” “You’ve survived this before.” “Oh God, oh God, help me God.” I only talk to God at a 10. It’s weird how it happens because the second my migraine peaks a higher power needs to be called. I’ve had many talks with God about the pain I go through and bliss has never been in the conversation.
So I’m going to try again this week. Once again, I missed Monday. Slacker! But I’ll try again to meditate and see how it goes. Everything is a process and I’ll continue my meditation journey.